i've been feeling sick all week. at first i thought it was the flu but then i started to think it was a cold and then my throat started to hurt and then it started to feel like a sinus infection. i'm blaming it all on the baby. he's been sick this week too and he's infected me i'm sure of it. needless to say my eating habits have not been good this week and i've not kept up with my water. i can't remember the last vegetable i ate. however, every time i step on my scale it says a lower number. on some level i know it's not permanent weight loss and it's just that it's just sickly-my-body-is-fighting-illnes-weight-loss and i'll gain it all back when i'm feeling better. i just wish it wasn't that way.

however, DayQuill and NyQuill are my new best friends. i'd have to say DayQuill is my first best friend and NyQuill is my second best friends.

it's great not being pregnant or nursing. i suffered through so many colds where i couldn't take anything. i'm loving the over the counter drugs.

all i have to say is DOWN 3.2 POUNDS.

i don't know how, but i was down. that brings my official ww weight to 237 pounds. i don't even remember the last time i was in the 230's. walking to the meeting i kept having to pull up my capri's which were always big on me (i got them right after i gave birth) but never this big. if i sucked in my belly they were going to seriously fall off. i think they should be retired but i love them so much and they're my only pair. i think i'll have to be purchasing another pair in a smaller size. :)

other than that nothing too interesting is happening. me and S are sickly, while the baby has somehow stayed healthy(ish). he does have a runny nose, but that's it. me and steve have this flu/cold/ulcerish thing. it sucks.

i've been very blog deliquent, the baby doesn't nap as much as he used to. it's getting harder and harder to sneak on here during the day to see what everyone's up to. i guess this is a sign of him growing up and getting older. time is sure flying.

my hitched bitch (kinda like secret santa, but in the middle of summer from my favorite message board www.hitched.ca) sent me about 8 back issues of the weight watchers magazine. i'm so looking forward to reading them. i'm going to save them and read them in the tub i think. a nice relaxing soak with a nice motivating read. thanks again to my wonderful bitch! :)

well the weekend was a bomb...again...as usual...yada yada yada. we ate out and got take out and i didn't exercise.

but all that aside, i stood on my scale this morning and it said 239. my scale has not said below 240 in years and years and years. i know the ww scale and my scale never agree (i think mine weighs higher) but at least it's a start, right?

i think i'm going to go to the weigh in on wednesday morning. if i do that then it's an excuse to walk to the meeting. if i go on tuesday nights i take the car b/c it's here and b/c it's nightime and i don't want to be walking around my neighbourhood by myself at night. it's about a half an hour walk and the baby loves walks so we're going to give it a try. and there's not as many people at the meeting. last week i think there was a dozen or so vs. the 75 people at the tuesday night one.

yesterday i had:

**2 glasses of SPRITE (the regular kind)
**1 glass of A&W ROOTBEER (again, the regular kind)
**1 glass of ICED TEA (yet again, the regular kind)

eeks, egads. that's 12 points right there. oh the sin, the sin.

say it with me now folks....diet, diet, diet, diet, diet, diet....

on the plus side i have a non-scale victory to report. yesterday i tried on some pants that i haven't been able to fit since before i was even pregnant. they were always tight. well yesterday they fit. and they weren't tight. i got so excited that i tried on the shirt that i always wore with it that hadn't fit properly long before the pants stopped. and the shirt frickin' fit!!!!! fuckin' A. so raegan if you're reading this, i'm going to wear it out saturday morning. you can tell me if it looks okay or if i'm kidding myself, right?

so today i was down 1.8 pounds making my official weight watcher weight 240.2. i am happy that i had a loss this week...2 weeks of gaining and maintaining was beginning to suck.

i keep having this feeling that weight watchers isn't cutting it for me anymore. like i want to try something new, something different, something exciting, something cheaper. mainly something cheaper. here we are trying to save money and live more frugally and in five weeks i'm going to need to shell out more money for this endeavour...i just feel like i can't justify it. i could gather some of my friends that are doing various weight loss things and we could all buy a good scaled and go by what it says at a weekly meeting, right? i just don't want to keep throwing my money at the big fat ww conglomerate. sigh. le big sigh.

i've been fairly deliquent on commenting on everybody's blogs. i was kind of sick this week and with easter on the weekend i've just been a busy, busy bee. i do read them though and i'm glad everyone is doing so good. you girls rock!

note to self:

don't make blogger posts when drunk.

i feel like crap today. ugh. i can't believe i drank that much.

16 glasses of wine later and i don't think i'm going to lose weight this week. and add on top of that 2 family dinners, 1 church event, 1 time eating out at fabu restaurant, and poor home eating habits i'm definitely not going to lose weight this week.

at my last weigh in i was up.

yep, that's right i was up .6 pounds. which i know is not much, but it's still a gain. i was so sad after that i almost turned around and went home. i even almost started crying. it sucked big time. but i stayed and listened and started to put things into perspective. i didn't journal. we ate out way to much. i didn't make healthy drink choices. i should have seen it coming, but i can pull the wool over my eyes like you wouldn't believe. i can make myself believe whatever i want. i wish i could live in reality. i wish i could really look at my life and my eating habits and see them for what they are--disgusting. i know this is a long road and it will take time to learn to eat properly and healthily. i just wish it could happen now. sigh.

but enough of that...

me and S and went for the most wonderful supper tonight at an italian restaurant. we had bruschetta (which the baby loved) and lasagne (the baby loved that as well). the lasagne was made with lean beef and medium italian sausage so it had TASTE and there was a layer of zuchini as well. the cheese was phenomenal as well. i don't feel too guilty b/c we walked there and back. it was 45 minutes there and then on the way home it was well over an hour b/c we took the scenic route. i didn't wear very appropriate shoes (read i wore sandals) and now my feet are KILLING ME! i'm such a shoe loser.

today is the first day in a long time that i am going to bed feeling good about my eating for that day.

i've accounted for my points (properly). i've gotten my 4 Activity Points in for the day. i've drank my 8 glasses of water. i've mapped out most of tomorrows foods.

i'm feeling good.

i'm ready for bed. :)

i've just found this at the local grocers. all i'm going to say is 1 point for 2 slices. can bread get any better?

'leaner than bacon' bacon. i can't find a picture of it online. 3 slices are 1 points. it tastes okay. i was a little sceptical at first, but pleasently surprised after i tasted it.

another awesome little snack food. taste just like real doritos but you get 27 chips for 4 points. rock on!

water with lemon. yum. i remember this little treat every so often. it gives it just nice zing.

yum!

todays eats:

2 eggs with leaner than bacon and ww bread (7 points)
baked doritos and guac. (3 points)
spinach mandarin salad
2 oatmeal scones.

32 oz water
45 minute walk with baby