i accomplished the 8 glasses of water yesterday.

i'm currently working on todays 8.

i did not get the job. they choose to move up one of the girls that already work in that office. her job is not being posted but is being kept open to place somebody there (ie. someone returning from mat leave, someone whose position was cut). i also learned today that the person who replaced me on my mat leave was not to their liking and has not stayed for my leave of absence. she was slightly bizarre and not up to task. interesting. i really do not want to return to my old position (hence applying for different schools) but perhaps they will now appreciate me slightly more if i do indeed have to return there? hope so.

my lovely union voted on our contract last night (which i did not know about b/c people on mat leave do not get to participate, apparently?). they passed a new ordinace saying that you have to work 12 months after your mat leave or else pay back the top up (which totally makes sense, but why couldn't they wait another little bit to pass this?). b/c i was planning to quit if i couldn't find another position. drat. now i'm stuck here for a year. sigh.

i'm totally rambling right now...this is so not weight loss focussed anymore. sorry guys.

today i will drink 8 glasses of water.

that is all.

i'm thinking about returning to this thing called weight loss. i don't think i'm ready to come back full on...but i'm thinking about it and you guys more and more. money is very tight right now with me not working and not being on mat leave anymore. S got a speeding ticket 2 weeks ago and our car seems to have broke last night. so money is even tighter now. sigh.

i went for a job interview on friday. if i get the job i probably wouldn't start until augustish but it's a pay raise and it's right by the baby's daycare. send some good vibes my way everyone. they're going to let me know on monday, either way.

the in-laws have left and i survived their vacation here. we ate out everyday for 2 weeks though. that cannot be good for my waistline. sigh. i haven't exercised in god knows how long. me and the baby have gone for some walks though at least i haven't stopped that.

i'm on the waiting list to see a counsellor through a free program at the St. Boniface hospital. that's the good news. the bad news is wait times are about 10 months. they're hoping that just after christmas they'll be able to send me an appointment time for the spring. gah, stupid waiting times.

damn those 35 cent chicken wings covered in beautiful spicy honey sauce. damn that MGD with Clamato juice. damn them all. ugh.

i haven't posted in a long time. things have spun out of control for me. my phobia has crept back into my life and i've been trying to deal with it. i'm terrified of beetles, especially beetles in my house...and well i've found a few (make that 12 in 2 months). i'm terrified to go in my kitchen b/c that's where i've found the majority of them. so needless to say eating has not been going well.

S's parents are also visiting from england so i've been very busy with them. they are totally in love with the baby and have been spending most days just playing with him. we've been eating out a lot and eating at my grandparents house quite a bit too.

my mat leave got screwed up and ended sooner than i was expecting it too. that caused a large blip in my life. it's hard to know that money you were expecting isn't going to be coming anymore.

i'm taking a break from ww and eating well. i step on the scale every once in a while and i seem to be maintaining so that's good. i don't have much to say, i just wanted to let everyone know i'm still alive and sort of kicking.

Day 2 was a disaster. i had a bad day emotionally and phsyically. i don't even want to think about it.

Food:

Chimichanga with avocado
1.5 tuna sandwiches with hot mustard and cheese
6 delicious wonderful cookies
6 cheese and kubasa and some crackers

Water:

56 ounces of water

Exercise:

Short 10 minute walk with friend after lunch

i'm creating healthy habits. i'm creating healthy habits. i'm creating healthy habits. really i am.

so i kinda went AWOL there for a few weeks. i saw success and i sabotaged myself. plain and simple.

now i'm back to baby steps.

& i'm okay with that.

Dinah's 28 Day Challenge

it takes 28 days to form a habit, so this my habit forming challenge. i don't think i've drank any water since i went awol. i haven't tracked a single food item. and my exercise has gotten VERY slack.

for 28 days i am going to:

1. track my food. i'm not going to worry about points and all that, i'm simply going to get into the habit of writing down everything that i eat and drink.
2. i'm going to drink 64 ounces of water a day.
3. i'm going to meet my monthly exercise goal of 1000 minutes in may with 2 strength training sessions a week (when i get to june i'll pick a new goal).

that's it, that's all i'm not going to worry about points and ww stuff, i'm simply going to do those 3 things to creat good habits.

i've been feeling sick all week. at first i thought it was the flu but then i started to think it was a cold and then my throat started to hurt and then it started to feel like a sinus infection. i'm blaming it all on the baby. he's been sick this week too and he's infected me i'm sure of it. needless to say my eating habits have not been good this week and i've not kept up with my water. i can't remember the last vegetable i ate. however, every time i step on my scale it says a lower number. on some level i know it's not permanent weight loss and it's just that it's just sickly-my-body-is-fighting-illnes-weight-loss and i'll gain it all back when i'm feeling better. i just wish it wasn't that way.

however, DayQuill and NyQuill are my new best friends. i'd have to say DayQuill is my first best friend and NyQuill is my second best friends.

it's great not being pregnant or nursing. i suffered through so many colds where i couldn't take anything. i'm loving the over the counter drugs.

all i have to say is DOWN 3.2 POUNDS.

i don't know how, but i was down. that brings my official ww weight to 237 pounds. i don't even remember the last time i was in the 230's. walking to the meeting i kept having to pull up my capri's which were always big on me (i got them right after i gave birth) but never this big. if i sucked in my belly they were going to seriously fall off. i think they should be retired but i love them so much and they're my only pair. i think i'll have to be purchasing another pair in a smaller size. :)

other than that nothing too interesting is happening. me and S are sickly, while the baby has somehow stayed healthy(ish). he does have a runny nose, but that's it. me and steve have this flu/cold/ulcerish thing. it sucks.

i've been very blog deliquent, the baby doesn't nap as much as he used to. it's getting harder and harder to sneak on here during the day to see what everyone's up to. i guess this is a sign of him growing up and getting older. time is sure flying.

my hitched bitch (kinda like secret santa, but in the middle of summer from my favorite message board www.hitched.ca) sent me about 8 back issues of the weight watchers magazine. i'm so looking forward to reading them. i'm going to save them and read them in the tub i think. a nice relaxing soak with a nice motivating read. thanks again to my wonderful bitch! :)