Why can't I just make the connection? Why can't I just eat less? Why can't I just exercise more? Why is MY ENTIRE LIFE ABOUT FOOD? All I think about is food. What I'm having for lunch, for supper, for snack. I think about how much food I'm going to eat and where I'm going to get it from. A5t breakfast I'm thinking about supper, at supper, I'm thinking about lunch. I'm thinking about the next bag of chips I'm going to eat. I'm thinking about the next bowl of popcorn. The next piece of chocolate. Tacos. Nachos. Pizza. Beer. Rye. Malibu. Coke. Root Beer. All. The. Time.

I'm thinking of weighing myself in kilos instead of pounds. & I keep thinking of journalling my food.

Le big Sigh.