and i'm panicking already. i won't lose enough weight. i've gotta stop. i've gotta eat differently.

i weighed myself this morning and i was 275 pounds. bizarre, huh?

i've got to make a menu of some kind. i've got to make some decisions.

i figured out today that i'm eligible for 33 points on WW. but, i'm thinking like maybe i'd start with 40 points. that's still like only 2000 calories (maybe 2500?) It's still way less then I eat now (I mean now I gotta be at like 3000-4000 calories a day, i just don't want to think about it). It's still on the road for healthier living? it would just allow me more breathing room to um have some slip ups, y'know?

Fifteen and a half points. 15.5.

That's what a Sausage n Egger from A&W are. That combined with the Hashbrown I also had were 19.5 points. Ugh. How gross is that?

I ate over half my points in 5 minutes. Double ugh.

I felt sick all day and then felt disgustingly & horribly sick all afternoon. So much so that I left work early and came home.