church is stressing me out and i know it's not supposed to do that. there's a whole bunch of stuff going on with employees and changing their positions and money problems and crap and it's stressing me out. last night i had 2 cigarettes. i wanted to binge but instead i had the 2 cigarettes. i don't know which is worse. smoking or eating.

i dream of going to a new church where nobody knows me and the music director isn't a nutjob and the custodians aren't yelling at another committee member and the minister isn't being yelled at by a nutjob. *sigh*