I don't know what to post. I'm so fat and so ugly and so gross.

My stomach hangs out over the rest of my body. It is so gross. Sometimes I try to will it away.

It always stays.

This update is just for you Foxy.

I don't have much to report. I bought a scale. I weighed myself. I'm now officially fatter then when I was 9 months pregnant with Andrew.
I'm not sure how I feel about this.

I continue to go to the Gym. I make it to at least 2 Classes a week. I enjoy Group Step and Group Kick and am trying to gather up the courage to go to Group Power.

We move in just over one month. I've started packing and prepping for moving. Anyone that wants to help...just let me know. We have 14 days to move so there are plenty of days available for helping. Hah!

Andrew is 2 and driving me crazy. This is not a good age.

I'm laid of work now until August 7th. I'm bored and want to go back. This staying at home with a 2 year old really sucks. I need sanity.

Steve is enjoying his new job. On the 17th he gets to go on the road for the day to watch an install and he seems excited. One month and a bit until his benefits kick in. I'm most excited about that.

That's about it for catching up.

I forgot to mention that I got a raise! Yep, that's right, I got my yearly bump up into the next year slot. That means like 78 cents more an hour for me! It was hella cool getting my paycheck and having an extra 40 bucks on it.

& as well July 1st we get the yearly cost of living increase. So 17.69 an hour here I come! Woot.

Steve has also started his new job and we are anxious to see how much he will be bringing home.

In brief:

1. The IL's arrive on Thursday. I'm dreading their arrival, yet excited as I know Steve only gets to see his parents once a year. I am worried that I will want to kill them b/c they are here for 3 weeks and yet I am excited b/c Andrew will get to spend lots of time with his grandparents (& hopefully this means Mommy will get to go to the Gym more often).

2. I did not weigh in this week as my weigh in partner was in Minneapolis getting rained on. I think this is for the best, as I am pretty sure I am just gaining more weight.

3. I have now been to the Group Step and Group Kick class at Shapes and I quite enjoyed the classes. I'm sore as Fuck but wanting to go back. That is definitely a good sign. I've been to the Group Kick class twice now and I'm starting to get the hang of the moves. I want to try the Group Centergy class next.

4. We have bought a house. Moving day is August 15th. I'm stressing about money and moving and all that stuff. Our lease runs up August 1st and I was in a right panic b/c we were not going to have anywhere to live for 15 days but luckily our building is going to let us stay until September 1st. Phew.

5. The other secretary at my school went for a job interview for a kick ass job today. I feel bad but I don't want her to get it, I don't want to risk having to work with someone new who I might not get along with and might be crazy. I'm trying so hard to be positive for her, when all I want to do is not let her go.

6. Foodwise things have been so-so. We have defiintely ate out less in the last 2 weeks. I have been eating lunch at work that I have prepared and brought with me. I have had breakfast the last few days. But I still crave burgers and fries and that is what we've been eating when we've gone out. So not a good choice. :(

Well, I'm still here. I'm still plugging away. Still gaining weight, instead of losing it. *sigh*

The more I think about losing weight, the more I gain.

I need some kind of new plan but I don't know what. *sigh*

I'm fucking sore today.

I did squats and lunges yesterday and man they made me sore.

There is no gym class in this girls evening. I could hardly walk stairs today.

For ease of viewing.

Tomorrow Night at 7:30 PM I am going to go to the Group Kick class at my gym.

I'm paying enough money for this membership, I'm going to do more then go on the treadmill and elliptical.

I've put this on in words on my Blog and now I must follow through with it.

This is a ticker




Today I was down .8!!!!!!!!!!!