i don't want to have this double chin anymore. i'm tired of it. i'm sick of hiding behind turtlenecks and i'm even sicker from feeling disgusting when i don't have one on. i'm tired of trying to figure out ways to put my arm or hand or turtleneck or blanket or another body or S in the way so that my double chin isn't immortalized forever in a picture.

i don't know when i developed this double chin. i know years ago if i hunched my shoulders up and pulled my face back i had a double chin, but now it's just always....there. it never goes away now. even if i lift my neck up and pull my shoulders back it still.....there. i hope it's one of the first things to go when i lose this weight. it'd better be.

some updates:

• i made the zero points soup and it's okay. i can see how it would get very boring very fast though. some days i think you'd have to dress it up with some noodles or some chicken. or other vegetables. i've got a whole freakin' head of cabbage so i'm going to be making it a few more times though. hah.
• the biggest loser workout dvd arrived earlier. it came three days earlier than amazon was predicting. i did the first workout this morning and while it was challenging it wasn't too dificult if you know what i mean. there was no crossover, kick, punch, crossover, make lunch, hold a baby, crossover, plie, smile, solve the worlds problems, crossover, double kick. it was pretty simple moves. i was SWEATING again. wow, i haven't sweat like this in years. all in all a good workout and a good buy. i can't wait to try out the next 5 workouts.
• last night me and S went out for supper and i overindulged. again. what is it with me and poor food choices at restaurants? anyways...i got the tostada which was a good choice (i mean it wasn't the nachos and it wasn't the chimichangas) but then i decide we need to get desert. *blushing* deep fried yummy pastry thing with ice cream and whipping cream and strawberries and strawberry sauce. mmmmmmmmmm. so good. there went the rest of my flex points and the rest of the points for the day. oops.
• my excel has crapped out and needs to be reinstalled so i'm without my spreadsheat for recording my food and counting points and stuff. i'm feeling very lost.

but that's about it for this saturday. the baby's finally gone down for his nap and my friends on her way over for supper (chicken and potatoes and carrots and salad) and some board games (maybe some cranium?).