this morning i stepped on that awful scaled and it read 255 pounds. that is amazing. maybe it's not such an awful scale after all. maybe we can make peace and end the war?

i am feeling so motivated right now!

i got S to read it so i know i wasn't influencing the scale in any way or hoping to see something that wasn't there. i cannot remember the last time the scale went down instead of up or stayed the same. i've heard that this first week is usually a big weight loss b/c of water or whatever and then you slow down, but i don't care. i'm just so happy to see a smaller number!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i just want to run around and update all my tickers and update all the forums i go to.

that's enough ego stroking for now.

last night we went out for supper with S's friend. the plan was to go to applebees. so i went on the internet and checked out the point values for applebees and had 3 or 4 dishes in mind that i could order. i was feeling good about what would be good choices for me to order and what my plan was. well, we get to applebees and the wait is half an hour. so S's friend suggests we go to Pony Corral which is right next door and me not wanting to be a poop, agrees. then all reason went out the window. and i mean out the freakin' window! i got a diet coke (probably the only weight watcher friendly thing i did all evening), clubhouse sandwich (mayo, bacon, turkey, 3 slices of bread, yummy, yummy, yummy though), fries with a ton ketchup (which i don't even really realize i'm putting onto the fries until this morning???), coleslaw (creamy dressing) and some fo steve's riblets (cause he was going to leave leftovers--i had to eat them, i hate wasting food). from what i can figure that was like a 30 point meal. THAT"S WHAT I"M SUPPOSED TO EAT IN A DAY! youzers. no wonder i'm fat.

then we go to play pool at a local joint. i have two beers with clamato juice. another 7ish points. and then when we get home i have a butter tart b/c i rationalize that i've alrady screwed up the day so why bother and i have this last butter tart then it will be gone and i can throw the empty package away? it wasn't even that good of a butter tart. i think that was 10 points. so before i knew it i'd consumed like 55ish points yesterday. YOUZERS.

i need some eating out strategies. i knew that a salad or wrap or chicken stir fry would have been a better food choice, but i just couldn't do it. i convinced myself that a clubhouse was a good for you sandwich (hah!). i conveniently forgot about the mayo and the bacon.

upwards and onwards i go. i've got chicken in tomato sauce cooking for supper tonight...mmmm...