ever have one of those days? or one of those weeks? or months? or years?

i'm in that right now. it doesn't seem what i do everything keeps unraveling or falling apart. the more organized i try to become, the more messy everything is. the more i try to do the right thing, the more wrong things seem to happen. the harder i try at work the more mistakes i make. y'know, that kind of thing.

for example: way back in like june or july i was given the keys to my church because i am the new children's ministry co-ordinator. i took them, put them somewhere (& not on my key chain) and never gave them a second thought. fast forward to the last few weeks where i've had this niggly feeling, and had circumstances where i could have gone to the church to do some work but haven't because i haven't been sure where the keys are...but i've put it off and put it off until tonight. tomorrow i'm hosting an event and i will invariably be the last person out of the building and need to lock up. so i start looking through my key ring and nope. no keys. i look through my purse, drawers, coat pockets, counters, little bowls full of crap i have, i look everywhere. panic sets in and i call the other CMC and fess up that i have lost my keys...and ask to borrow hers. she agrees reluctantly and i still feel awful. i'm dreading telling the church secretary that i've lost it, dread having to make them get another key cut. my anxiety is through the roof....and then...then i find it in my 'safe' spot...which is so safe that i don't even remember putting it there. i'm so thankful to have found they keys but now i feel silly for having called her only to find them 10 minutes later. bah.

now i'm anxious because i can't remember what i picked as the security code.