I Would Die For You - Jann Arden

This beautiful song takes me back to that night standing in Paul's empty apartment, days after he had left his wife and moved in to the tiny space so we could be together.

I had discovered my love for Jann Arden during round 1 of mine and Paul's relationship. I listened to her a lot during those first two and a half years we went out. We parted, he got married to another woman, and I waited. Dunno why, but I did. Probably had to do with self-esteem issues. One year later we were fooling around and then we were suddenly in a relationship again. It was very overwhelming but something that I thought I wanted. For years I thought that.

Anyways...I remember that moment of that night in his empty new apartment, furnished with old car seats and a mattress on the floor. I had that CD playing and we were slow dancing and he held my face in his hands and looked at me for a long time. He didn't say anything until I broke that moment. We stopped dancing and he said, "You know I couldn't hear any of her music without crying when we weren't together."

I know I shouldn't have, but I felt glad. Happy. Vindicated that he had not spent our time apart in a state of bliss. I was pleased that I made such an impact on this man's life. & especially pleased that even a marriage could not keep us apart.

I had so much to learn from that moment on.